Starting Journal Writing Ritual

Whenever I try to write my journal entry I get confused about how to start, what to write? Because I always try to cover and relate everything whatever has happened and left to write. I feel it makes writing about my day very complex. So , this time  I am going to write about today only without any recap.

Taking first step is the most important thing so I am taking my first step today to write my journal. Its not that I have not tried it before but its because from today it will become my daily ritual.

Now these day my quality of thoughts has improved. I have realized that it is very difficult to not to think any thought , specially when you are living alone. I talk a lot to myself but now I can proudly say that my quality of thoughts has improved and I am actually getting benefits of this self talk. It helps me in directing myself for right things.

I believe it is very important to share these thoughts also and writing a journal is the best way to do it. I don’t think I can rely on any other person to share my feelings, plans and thoughts, its not because I am living alone but because every one is lacking time. Everyone around us struggles to manage time so its same for everyone. No body has a listening ear which is available for them all the time and at all the places. Even if someone asks me to listen this amount of sharing daily, it will be impossible for me also to take out time from my schedule. I feel its my blessing that I can pour out my thoughts in writing.

I have understood very clearly that I have to work for my financial independence and I have to workout for my own health. I am taking all the pain for my better life. It’s not a favour to anyone else in the world. It’s a favour I am doing on me because I need it, I need to be healthy, wealthy and happy for myself. So, nobody owes me anything. I owe a lot to me. I am focusing on what I can do for myself rather than thinking what others can do for me. I have stopped controlling which is out of my hand.  It makes me feel free and relieved.

I am working on myself happily. Accepting what I can not change. Yesterday night I was trying to sleep and I some emotions came in my heart and I literally felt pain in my chest because of emotional pain I could feel at that moment, instantly I said to myself that if these feelings giving you so much pain stop feeling them, stop feeling anything and sleep. I shut down my heart and slept. If I would have allowed my self to sink in that feeling, I could have not slept for whole night, I saved myself. Its like I have someone inside me who have understood how to protect me.

I really care about myself, I worth all the happiness in world. I have accepted the fact that I am not anyone’s number one or only one but I am in the top of my priority list. I am my number one and the only in life. Its not being selfish, its being self-aware and realistic.

Its time to get ready for cozy sleep. 8 hours sleep is my ritual.

Goodnite.